.January 27, 2006 ' 23:20 Y
hello everyone.. i'm SO sorry i havent been blogging. nothing much to say luh.. but my days have been good. so farrr. i think. sigh. only Him up above knows my dredful pain. whatever it is. i hope itll be over soon. my nights've been wet and flooded eventhough the raining season had stop. it aint sunny yet at my side of the world. i'm still trap in the rain. somone come and bring me an umbrella. is the grass really greener on the other side? sigh.
LOSS can never be read. it can only be felt. -
memoirs of a geisha. how true. when you lost someone or something. youll try to search for it all over the place. high and low. no matter what. you wont want to give up. tears kept on trickling down your cheeks non stop while millions of needles continues to poke your bleeding heart and still that thing just wont appear in front of you. you get irritated, annoyed. but nooone knows. you want to tell someone. but the world is just full of lies that you dont trust anyone not even yourself. sigh. is she ever gonna have a conversation with them? why does she seem extinct? why is she being kept away from the truth? why is she being kept away from what's been going on? she doesnt know. she keeps quiet when shes with them cuz she doesnt know what to do. what to say. she runs away. runs away from everyone. runs away from the world. she tries to hide everything. the closest she could find was a window. she sat on the ledge and started crying. crying her heart out. and she just dont know what to do. well.. enough said about this. like i said. whatever it is. i hope it ends really soon.
lets try to bring her back. (SNAPS!) many things coming up! so many stuff to do! and FEBRUARY is coming!
0102 -back to school. ): (but its a wednesday! xD)
-vball. st. hildas. JIA YOU!
0702 -vball. ngee ann
0802 -vball. pasir ris
0902 -vball. junyuan
1002 -netball. geylang methodist. JIA YOU GIRLS!! all the way~ (:
1202 -PUNY's BIRTHDAY!!! *GRINS*
1302 -vball. dunman high.
1404 -valentinesDAY. (: (love is in the air..)
1502 -netball. st hildas
1702 -netball. chai chee
2002 -netball. temasek
2202 -i'm fifteen.
-anglican high.
well.. thats february.. so many stuff. so little time. and somehow i'm not looking forward to my birthday. and Vday's gonna make me flood. i want to find a guy who calls you pretty and not sexy. i want a guy who stays up to watch you fall asleep. i want a guy who calls you back when you hang up when he's half way talking. i want a guy who kisses your forehead when youre crying endlessly. i want a guy who kisses your gentle cheek when youre looking away. i want a guy who holds your hand infront of his friends. i want a guy who tell you why he's so sad. i want a guy who tells you that he cares. i want a guy who wont hide anything from you. i want a guy who tells you the truth. i want a guy who makes you smile every single day. i want a guy who'll make your heart melt all day. i want a guy to watch the stars with at night. i want a guy to hold on to so tight. i want a guy who walks down the shore with you eventhough when its low-tide. i want a guy who will make you feel alright. i want a guy who will go "hey thats my girlfrined." to his friends. i want a guy who always takes my hand. i want a guy whose as sweet as you. i want this guy to somehow come true. make me this guy someone. he'll be my
valentine.
`dreams nourish them soul.
but generous and save your dream
love does not surrender to all.
SITY KAY!